The worst part is that I’m not even procrastinating. That implies there’s simply a task I’m avoiding starting. How about going one step further? Not even thinking about what that task is.
Leaving the to-do list vague and mysterious. A dark pit of despair that couldn’t possibly be tackled until it’s thought about some more. Just after reading this article, just after refreshing Twitter, just after going to lunch since it’s now 1 Pm. This can go on for weeks.
Usually it’s a hard deadline that suddenly brings clarity, focus and an inhuman capacity for work. If there was a way to be 50% as productive as during that period but over a much longer period of time, I would outperform everyone in my office.
But right now, I’m the hopeless procrastinator.
Everything else is great. I’m getting stronger in the gym, it’s taking longer for the purple belts to tap me in jiu-jitsu and I’m off camping or rock-climbing every other weekend. Yet, it’s all overshadowed by this nagging feeling of not really doing my work, of not embracing the pain now so I can live well later.
I made it 5 days out of 7 for my Creator Challenge. The last two days losing momentum because of the inertia of work. It’s hard to feel good walking away from my desk without having achieved anything. That could be why BJJ and the gym are so important to me currently since it let’s me sleep at least partially satisfied with the day.
This is partly exaggeration. I have high standards of myself and am not currently living up to them in this area. I’ve always been a high performer (as I suspect most guys in this part of the internet are) but right now I’ve lost some momentum.
I’m not writing this to wallow, I’m writing this to change.
The two things I’m doing to combat this are:
Meditation – I just subscribed to Calm for the year to force me to sit down every morning
Time Blocks – 25 minutes on, 5 minutes off. In blocks of 3. I feel as if I’ve destroyed my attention span and this is my mental gym program. I expect my focus to grow as I train it and so either the reps or the sets of these time blocks (or podomoros) can grow.
These are on top of the things I do anyway such as Wim Hof breathing and eating healthily. I’m not going to list a hundred different tips, since I’m not going to DO a hundred different things. I’m a fan of simplicity and getting the most bang for my buck. These two seem like they should give me the best ROI. So it’s these two things I’m going to focus on.
Life is momentum and I want to pick up the pace.
PS Shout out to DCL Live who put me to shame on the 7 Day challenge with his posts. Check them out here.